When Laura told me that she thought that she was pregnant it was weird - a floating realization that didn't seem to have sunk in. The first ultrasound was along those lines as well. "Hey, see that dot there? That will be a baby". Strange and abstract. The next ultrasound was like that too "Hey, see that pulsing blip there? That will be a baby". I felt like I was sort of missing something. I knew in my head that dot would become a baby and that our lives would change, but that knowledge felt like water and my brain was the ducks back. It just wouldn't stick.
The ultasound after that was very different. That was where it now looked like a baby. There was a beating heart, head, arms, legs, movement. I felt like someone had made a brick of emotions, dropped it into a sock and hit me upside the head with it. Excitement, fear, happiness, gratitude. Now it felt like it started to sink in and feel real. I find it simply amazing how quickly things can go from a dot to a blip to a baby. Our baby.
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