Next working day I will be back at work. I'm a bit sad about that. I love spending time with the kids, so I'm a bit sad about that. Laura usually has better insight into how I'm feeling than I do recognized this and tried to get me go for a long bike ride tonight, but I made a short one. (Aside: I really need to get a bike tune up so my front wheel spins freely. 😬)
From what I understand about work, a lot of the tasks that I work on were put aside for 9 months with "Let's just wait for Jim to get back" as the reason. Does that mean that the tasks aren't important? That I'm the only person that can do them? Both those answers point to failure on my part. My goal is always to get into a state where I can win the lottery and run away to a tropical island and not worry about screwing people over at work.
The fact that I've not done everything that I wanted to get done. I haven't posted about Holland, or done a blog post from the kids in forever, hardly gone over the photos, not cleaned and reassembled my keyboard, I need to buy new shoes / sandals, etc. I spend way too much time reading twitter or the news. I need to somehow shut that off for myself. I also wish that apple would release a new mac mini so I can fix our home computer setup like I've been promising Laura for years now and retire my 10 year old macbook.
On my bike ride this evening I stopped on the Adà we Crossing and just listened to the water going under the bridge.
I hate feeling sad. And that makes me feel... sad. Loop. *sigh*
Today was a great day, but I'll have to review it in my head later. Maybe a shower will help. Let's try that.
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